Tuesday, April 08, 2014

Lemons & Lemonade

Just when I thought that life had handed me all the lemons to make lemonade, a few more were thrown my way just to add to the fun.  We all know the saying "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade", but I have way to many lemons and not enough pitchers to hold the lemonade that is needing to be made.

Today my kids and I had a cry fest.  A cry fest that is one for the ages.  I miss being at home with my kids.  They miss me being home.  I feel guilty because I have to work so much away from home and they feel bad because I have to work outside the home.  It is a catch 22 lately.  When we think we are headed in a direction that will give me a chance to be the "stay at home mom" it all comes crashing back to reality that it can't happen yet.  And I suffer in silence until I break and my kids break, because they know how much I miss being the mom that I feel had to take a back seat to help our situation and give our kids opportunities to grow and develop into the individuals that they want to be someday.

Sacrificing is so hard and so is making lemonade.  Especially when the lemons keep coming.  And so there will be lots of lemonade on hand if anyone is looking for some.  I have a lot.